Thanks Working :) All support is appreciated!!!
Vincenza in response to your question about mindset just prior to the quit I would characterize it as well prepared, confident but with reservations of my ability to accomplish the goal. I prepared for 4 weeks, identifying triggers, preparing environment, tapering, working on associations, planning substitute activities, compiling Cards of motivating thoughts and mantras etc. I moved my quit date one week because I didn't Feel quite ready. Then the day Before my selected quit date I was Ready and went for it. Had a ceremony where I crumbled up the 17 cigs left in the pack, had a cup of fresh blueberries with a dollop of FF whipped cream with a candle that I blew out to signify my Rebirth as a non-smoker. After 24 hours my confidence was soaring and day by day I grew stronger.
My confidence has actually dipped in the last few days as I'm experiencing mental and sensory images/smells of cigs. But I have my lists and Positive Response cards to read and music/dance routines that lift my spirits and bolster my self confidence. I'm not afraid to stand in front of a mirror and say aloud things like 'I am a non-smoker, I'm Free', 'It is Easy to be a non-smoker, it is Natural for me to be a non-smoker' until I Believe it again!! It is all mind games at this point :) As long as I Believe it I can do it! I celebrate each week clean with confetti and a little ceremony :)
But I cannot lie; at times it takes tremendous work to generate that Positive Attitude again, especially when I step on the scale weekly, that always throws me for a loop as I watch it go up despite staying between 1200-1500 calories per day and walk 5-6 miles daily. That seems to be the biggest issue I'm having. Any assistance is appreciated. Do not tell me a few pounds doesn't matter because to me it does; I work hard every day of my life to maintain my weight! 15 years ago I lost 40lbs and this is the first time my weight has gone over 120 :( It is depressing....