Original Post by: sarahboydmacdonald
I have made it to Day 4 with no slips, no breakdowns, no crazy mood swings, and no real urges. I feel as if I am in denial or something. Shouldn't I be feeling worse? I even had two glasses of wine last night and didn't feel the urge. Am I in the calm before the storm? Any suggestions, help, prognosis would be really helpful. Thanks
Oh, at first I thought you were having no withdrawal symptoms, and I was thinking, "Boy is sarahboy lucky." LOL
As for the moods, I don't think bad moods are necessarily part of the process. I don't remember being particularly cranky during physical withdrawal and in the weeks that followed. Instead, I was kind of tripped out. Everything had kind of a surreal feeling. I had some time distortions, and not just in relation to the craves. I had a sense that I was acting kind of weird, but when I asked friends, they said that I was acting normal. I think I may also have been kind of overly happy, since I was excited to be getting the drug out of my system. Also, when it was finally all out (3 days, approximately) I felt a huge sense of peace and relief.
There have been a few times (and I'm talking less than once a month) over the course of the past year in which I've found myself irrationally angry over something. I'm not sure what that's about. It is a new thing for me. It could be just because I don't have the old crutch of "smoking it off" when something made me mad. Or it might be related to hormonal shifts that just happen to be occurring these days. I'm honestly not sure. What I do know is that it's been manageable so far. I know when I'm feeling irrational and I have managed to not lash out on the people who have triggered it. (I did give one of the health educators an "earful" a while back, but the target of my rage was not the health educator. I just chose to have a 3rd party vent session instead of going off on someone.)
So, no, I don't think you necessarily have to get mean and nasty as part of your quit. Everyone has a different process.
