Eyja:
Sorry for the delay on this, but I took some time out of the schedule to visit my Brother, Sister-in-Law and nieces and nephews this weekend. It was time well spent. I have been working a great deal and getting a bit to focused on the job. One of my problems is that I do not know when enough is enough. Sometimes I lock on to a task with the a laser like intensity and forget that I need to rest now and again. This was one of those let it all go times...Great stuff.
Interesting that you mention betrayal both of the self and by others. We do betray ourselves when we fail to hear ourselves clearly. I do it all the time...That is certainly a type of betrayal that we can do something about. I believe that we all have the ability to know ourselves in a way that helps us navigate the travail that is this life. There is no doubt that we will always have tribulation in this world. But somehow we have an inner sense that allows us to right the ship when ever the waves get to steep. Somebody once described this as the idea of having two wolves warring inside of us. One wolf is decidedly evil, it represents anger, jealousy, greed etc. The other wolf represents the higher aspects of a human; love, peace, respect etc. The wolf that wins the battle is the wolf we feed.
Betrayal by another, especially another human who we loved dearly is another matter. But though we can not control the words and actions of others, we still have the ability to temper our own reaction to the pain and suffering that naturally rise out of the fire of abandonment and betrayal. If we are able to feed the good wolf many painful situations can become new opportunities. That is a hard thing to do, I know, I have had to make that adjustment on a number of occasions during my trips around the sun. I remember one of these in particular which left me standing in an airport, with absolutely no idea of where I was going to go next. The events that followed that encounter with the edge, where in a word amazing and nothing my imagination could have ever conceived.
In the past I would deal with these types of things by either smoking, or drinking or doing other things that where not good for me. I did them not because I wanted to but because I didn't know how NOT to do them. We need to practice hearing that small quiet voice, it has our best interest at heart. We need to feed the good wolf...
stay well
nonic
