I'm feeling a lot better actually. No i haven't connected with my friend and i probably never will. I've come to the realization that i don't need someone like that in my life, if she can do this to me now, what other things is she capable of. Thanks Hot SiO2 for the kind words. I took them to heart. I'm not taking the blame for any of this. She knew what she did was wrong and it cost her a 9 year friendship. Thank you all for being so understanding and helpful. It really means a lot to me!