Not sure what to write actually.
I quit smoking again on Monday, and went back and forth with the idea of even posting, or joining everyone again. I think (looking back) that that was about the shame I felt. It's taken several days of battling it out to realize that the only person I was hurting was myself. I know I need the support because it's the only place I can come anytime I need, and there will probably be someone to talk to or answer someone else's post.
I went through a horrible bout of depression last year and started smoking again. It took a bit of time and a lot of work, but that has resolved itself for the time being.
I feel like I'm hanging on to this most recent quit by a thread. I've got no support from the homefront-- in fact, things are horribly stressful there which is making this quit harder. I keep wanting to use that as an excuse, but I know smoking isn't going to fix how I feel, or change anything at home. I also know that I can't let stress keep me from quitting because (who am I kidding?!), stress is a part of life.
So I've been reading posts and kind of lurking in the shadows trying to decide whether I really want to keep making a go at this. Right now, in this moment, I do. So that's why I'm writing.
There are so many people here that I've missed.
Deb
