holy cow!
Thank you everyone. I spent the last half hour trying to figure out how to use the new website! Is there a time-out feature????? I feel completely lost, but it seems like the site has been improved a lot.
Dave, I've sooooo missed you and am so glad to see that you are here. Yeah, sometimes I do need a kick in the pants, and sometimes I just need a shoulder. Thank you for both you big geek. And thank you for being the first to respond because that kept me on track.
Tiana, thank you for responding too. I reread the tools, and honestly, like peteg, I know what to do. I think each quit teaches me a little more. This time, I realize that I need to get through each minute without fooling myself, or giving myself an out. Last year I don't even feel that badly about because I needed some time to deal with bigger issues. But having dealt with them, I know that I have to get back onboard with not smoking. I've learned so so much this past year.
Oh my Gosh Sparky!!!! Of course I remember you! You have been on my mind so much when I was trying to decide whether to post or not. I've always admired your quits, and your honesty. You've allowed those of us that fell to come back. Along with others. And although I've been gone, you all have not been far from my mind and I do consider this a family of sorts. There are lots of people I want to ask about.
I also have to say that today's "quote" made my final decision. Thank you Moderators.
Deb, you are such a sweetheart and I've missed you too. It was a hard night. Hard day too. There were many times that I wanted to cave. Weirdly (and has anyone else experienced this?), each time I've tried to quit, the quit symptoms are different. This time, it's bad. Maybe that's good because I need to feel how bad it can be.
Hi Charm-- your post cracked me up. Yes! I totally know what you meant. And thank you for your support because I really need it. I've never made it 6 months. I'm trying not to feel flawed because I don't think it's productive for me...... but it's hard not to sometimes. Tell me please about your experience.
And Bee Queen :)
I haven't forgotten about you at all.
I've missed you so much too. You were and have been such an inspiration to so many. I was so hoping you were still here, and there you are. Your post gives me hope. Again, it was a horrible day and in many ways, your post made me picture something lighter, a being with wings, and it lifted me up and helped me get through.
Rock the best post of all maybe!
I've just pruned the grapes, planted a cherry tree, ollaiberries, and blueberries. The apple trees are sprouting as well as the mullberry tree. I also put in a lawn a month ago which I know isn't the best ecological choice, put it's just a small patch with lots of plants falling over it-- hastas, lots of ferns, and our native plants here. There are Tulips sprouting everywhere. Wild Turkeys are trying to eat it all, as well as the deer.
You know my distractions. We share that passion. I needed to talk about how hard the day and withdrawals are, but it's also nice to focus on something else. I think that combo is the key to quitting.
I have to be in S.F. next week too. I'm presenting on depression at a conference. Ironic.
I hope you and your partner are okay. I've not kept up but you guys have never left my thoughts.
Smoke free and so grateful for all of your responses. I feel okay to go to sleep now, and wake up to deal with whatever the day brings.
Deb
, okay, so that doesn't make any sense..)
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