I think it is okay for people to feel sorry for themselves sometimes. Sometimes you have to stop and lick your wounds. Human beings are not gods. Life is difficult, and it is often unfair. I just set aside time to do to feel sorry and when the time is up, try move on.

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 5/1/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 499
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 13,972
Amount Saved: $5,938.10
Life Gained:
Days: 56 Hrs: 2 Mins: 23 Seconds: 36

Breather, Yes I DO remember you and I have been impressed at your strength and commitment. Sorry, if everything came out all wrong - I am just being eaten up by guilt and in a bit of a dark place. I am pleased to still see so many familiar 'faces' here ... and how well most are doing.  Hopefully I too will get a chance to see my stats looking as good as yours. I will keep checking in ... and thanks xx

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 4/23/2003
Smoke-Free Days: 2697
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 40,455
Amount Saved: �10,113.75
Life Gained:
Days: 294 Hrs: 6 Mins: 13 Seconds: 8

Fag Ash Lil Do you not remember me ? Who says you're not the most important person here ? I say you are. Nice to see you again. breather
My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 11/11/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 668
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 33,400
Amount Saved: $16,032.00
Life Gained:
Days: 121 Hrs: 20 Mins: 15 Seconds: 24

Oh God! ... I must have sounded so self absorbed in my last message, apologies for this - again this is not the 'usual me' - Breather ... I am sorry if I sounded like 'the most important person here', of course I know I am NOT but when you are frightened and low it is hard to see the wood for the trees ... SORRY!

Hello Fag Ash Lil  I know MM is your buddy. We are all devastated by her illness. Nice to see you here again. You're the most important person here. breather
My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 11/11/2008
Smoke-Free Days: 668
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 33,400
Amount Saved: $16,032.00
Life Gained:
Days: 121 Hrs: 20 Mins: 12 Seconds: 35

LOLLY!  I logged in last night looking for you and Miss Marple.  I have been struggling on and off with smoking - currently OFF as I have become unwell and due to go to the Doctor on Monday to arrnage further tests.  My son recommended that I visit the SSC again for some help as he could see how terribly low and frightened I have become.  I had not logged on since January and by the time I came off the SSC last night I was in tears - I am so utterly devestated by MM's illness, she is my buddy and I have thought of her often over the months ... I never for one moment even considered that it would be such awful news (I have been guilty of living the ostrich life ... head in the sand ... until something comes along and kick you in the arse!) I spent sometime tracking MM story and was filled with fear, sadness and admiration (she is a helluva lady!) but I also had a further insight into your own illness, much of which I did not know prior to last night.  I find myself in a bit of a dilemma - I am worried that the Doctors will diagnose something awful and I have become very, very depressed (this is not my usual outlook on life!) but on the other hand - I am also think, maybe I will be lucky this time - but it's probably in the post for me down the line.  I keep looking and my children, who are still young and I wish that I could turn back the clock.  I feel so worried that they may have to grow up without me and I am so frightened for them. My son told me that he was looking up lung cancer on the internet ... and I was so sad that I have reduced my children to having to seriously contemplate the thought of their mother dying.  Some people ... smoke for years ... then stop ... and go on to live long relatively healthy lives ... are these people a rarity???  or do all ex smokers have to live their lives with the grim reaper constantly lurking in the shadows??   Sorry to be an utterly depressing soul - but I just cannot muster up the 'old me' ... I seem to have run out of any sense of positivity.  I am awaiting confimation of membership at the SSC on FB and hopefully some familiar faces will be there.  It was good to see you still posting and i will try to keep a little more up to date with things.  Take care Lolly xx

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 7/24/2010
Smoke-Free Days: 48
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 960
Amount Saved: $249.60
Life Gained:
Days: 5 Hrs: 6 Mins: 24 Seconds: 31

My Mileage:

My Quit Date: 11/25/2004
Smoke-Free Days: 2115
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 74,025
Amount Saved: �18,506.25
Life Gained:
Days: 280 Hrs: 16 Mins: 28 Seconds: 31

Ashley, Health Educator