MM, great to see you back on the quit-coaster for another great ride.
This time, though, I think I saw you buy a 'ride-all-day' pass, so there's no need to get off when you think the ride is over.
Staying quit seems to be the problem so you've surely got a very clear idea of the times you fell back in the rabbit hole. I'm wondering if it would help you to visualise those times again and come up with five or six alternate scenarios that would have prevented you from picking up another cigarette.
I recall in my life two very significant cigarettes. (Sounds really weird, that, doesn't it?)
Anyhoo, the first was the first. I picked it up because I was really angry with my family about something, and I knew to do this was to break the greatest taboo I'd held to that time. The first I call 'The Get Even'.
The second significant one was my last failed quit prior to this one. Bottom line was I'd quit for over two months, and just as I was really struggling, I was made to feel quite stupid and small by a guy I'd been dating long distance. Won't go into detail, but I couldn't cope with the condescension and rejection. I call the secon the 'I Feel Like an Idiot'.
Getting even with someone out of anger. Dealing with rejection. These are two very powerful emotions that I tried to smother with a cigarette. The first time it led me into my own rabbit hole. The second time it sent me back just as I'd crawled out.
Think about your significant smokes. The ones that broke your resolve. Learn about them. Understand them.
Then destroy them.
You can do this.
x T
My Milage:My Quit Date: 1/1/2007
Smoke-Free Days: 1100
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 25,300
Amount Saved: �6,957.50
Life Gained:Days: 98
Hrs: 4
Mins: 14
Seconds: 15