I'm only on day 3. I hope you all don't mind if I post a bit as well as read, read, read. You're a lifeline for me. My sister wants me to join a weekly group in person at the hospital. I am better suited to the internet. I'm even feeling safe enough to post my picture soon, perhaps, but I don't really want anyone to know about the COPD diagnosis as I am embarrassed by it, humiliated actually and can hear "what did you expect". I didn't expect this when I started smoking in my early teens and then I thought I'ld be one of the lucky ones. There are no lucky smokers that I am aware of.
Today will be rough. My husband got called into work. When I need reinforcement, I get a hug from him. We just celebrated 22 years married, 30 years in total on December 31. It's me and my child today. We have lots of plans - birthday party, etc. so I won't subcumb today knowing that you're all here going through the same thing.
Two things - I'm very gassy and I recall this from Jan. 07 and it is foul to smell (sorry that is too much information but I had to share it to see if my recollection is clear - it's from withdrawals right?
The second thing is please forgive me if I post too much in these initial weeks - my nerves are jumping out of my skin today and again I didn't sleep well.
If anyone has experience with either side effects and tips, I'ld be grateful. I can just see the gas floating as 5-10 Moms group around to talk, while the kids have their fun, how embarrassed I'll feel and it's not like you have enough time to even escape the room (though I will certainly try), I'll clear out the room more likely. I always remember someone saying to me in Jan. 07 to keep my sense of humor close to my heart as it will keep me going. Nothing like a good laugh. I'm on the highest dose patch today. I think it is working better than the gum was.
Ok, that was a rambling post!
Seeking
My Milage:My Quit Date: 10/9/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 2
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 50
Amount Saved: $20.00
Life Gained:Days: 0
Hrs: 5
Mins: 54
Seconds: 55
