thank you Sylvie, it just seems that I am switching one addiction for another. I take alprazolam sometimes three times a day and clonazapam sometimes twice a day. Not always, somedays I only take one pill. I just get scarred that I will never be able to live "free" so to speak without a crutch. I feel weak. So many out here have done it cold turkey and won, I feel like a sissy sometimes. I am not one of those whiners looking for all kinds of positive or you are not talk..(I hated those girls in highschool). You know what I mean, they weighed like three pounds and complained they were fat just so you would tell them how skinny they were. I am not trying to bash, just explain that I really am not looking for sympathy, but some idea as to what my deal is. I listened to some hypnosis cds in the beginning, maybe I should do that again, any suggestions from anybody that has heard of a good online cd hypnotist? I am checking my EAP to see if I have counceling sessions available to me. I am sorry for rambling, I know I have good days and don't post enough of them, I tend to post when I feel down. Thats no good. for the next 20 min I will make everyone I come in contact with laugh...hopefully it will rub off on me. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 110
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,300
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $412.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 24
