A1 - I feel for you - If I was close enough - i'd give you a big hug.
Hey, don't forget to take care of yourself, too. OK? Taking care of sick kids is very very hard - even if you feel like you're not doing the best job of it. I don't do welll with other folk's illness either - even my kids' and I used to smoke through it as well - I felt like smoking calmed my stomach down and certainly felt like it eased my anxiety.
For a while after i quit, i was tkaing pills for anxiety as well. Please don't be down on yourself. it will all even out in the end. I was to the point of questioning if it would be worht it to become adicted to a pill that calmed me down, or if I should continue to fight. I was tired of fighting. Tired of not feeling like I was capable of rational thought - tired of being afraid of everything.
Guess what? it didn't last forever. I kept looking and kept on my doctors and found a hormonal problem that once corected, fixed all of it.
You will be alright. This won't last forever, and things will finally even out for you. You have set out on a journey that is going to leed to nothing but good things and heeling for you. You can't hide behind a smoke screen anymore, so you have no options but to keep moving foreward, and I guarantee that you're going to find ballance and some comfort when you get there.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 617
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 46,275
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $11,568.75
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 55 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 19 [B]Seconds:[/B] 23