Hey Jef55 - I need to learn how to play pogo, I think... i've never heard of it.. again i think i live under rocks.
We have a lot in common I think. I'm also very very afraid of failing. I think this is a big reason why when I slip up and eat something that really bad for me, or I eat way way too much - I "choose" to eat badly for a few days after that until I regain my resolve. Because now I didn't really fail - I made a concious choice - for whatever reason.. "I LOVE food!" "I want to LIVE my life, not starve it out and always worry about what i'm eating!" "I'm a genetic chocoholic.. can't help it." (That one wasn't actually one of mine, but I heard from a friend of mine recently when i asked her to join weight watchers with me.. lol) It's all the same, though. And the thing is - those are all lies that we tell ourselves to justify our actions.
We can't really enjoy our lives when we're too fat, because we have to spend all of life watching it happen and not doing it, and then we die young of weight related illnesses.
And nobody really enjoys smoking.. We tell ourselves that's a reason not to quit.. "But, I enjoy it..." there's nothing enjoyable about it.
You're going to be OK, Jef - Don't worry about the weight until you've got the quit good and under your belt, OK? Baby steps to good health!
Also, the only crutch is smoking, so don't worry about using something! Things are kind of weird here right now, but don't be thinking that folks are thinking ill of you because you are using Chantix. I was a big cry-baby when I quit, and things went through that weird phase right then here, too, and I kept thinking that people were looking down their noses at me because I whined so much about it all.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 573
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 42,975
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $10,743.75
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 51 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31
