OK, confession time....Yes, I slipped and I slipped hard! :(
I just couldn't make it through the holidays. It started with a night out for drinks and I somehow convinced myself I could have 'just one'. I know! I know! NOT ONE PUFF EVER! I kept hearing that voice in my head, but I couldn't fight it. I smoked about five cigarettes that night. The next day when my husband lit up and I knew I had already slipped, I figured one more day wouldn't hurt. And I had a party to go to the next night that I knew I would have a hard time with....Oh I know, the JUNKIE was feeding me lines! I was weak and continued to smoke. Now, I am smoking again. Every day. I am trying hard not to feel guilty. I have accepted that it is not going to happen this time.. One More Try is going to have to give it one more try!
I am planning a trip to Mexico in just over a week for my sister's wedding. I am getting really excited. This was supposed to be a smoke-free vacation for me but now I don't think I can do it. I want to enjoy myself and I know I will be stressed and miserable if I try to quit again. Yes, I have slipped so far that I will have to go through hell week all over again! What have I done to myself!!? So, I've re-set my quit meter for January 14. I hope you will all still be here when I come back. Goofy and Sprquits, especially. You guys have helped me so much. I feel as though I have failed you and the Octobreathers. :( But you guys are doing so awesome! Keep up your enthusiasm, motivation and your quits.
My husband has agreed to try to quit if I can stay smoke-free for six months. This is really good news! I know I can't blame him for my slip, but I am always tempted when I know he is smoking. I really want us to both quit, so I think this will be a good motivator for me.
Thanks to everyone for being so supportive and inspirational. I promise to come back January 14 with a renewed determination.
Karen.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/14/2008
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -16
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] -192
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $-65.28
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] -103553