ldyexec, a slip is just a slip. It's happened to lots of us. The important thing is to get right back on & to learn from the slip, so it doesn't happen again.
You are doing both, so stop beating yourself up, right now.
I also tried this quit cold turkey and only lasted a few days. I immediately got back on, only with the patch and it was the best thing I ever did. The very first morning, I put that very first patch on, I became 347% a non-smoker, committted to N.O.P.E under any circimstances.
I followed the program to the letter and really used the time on the patch to develop strategies for triggers, to think about my smoking patterns, and to look forward.
Because I knew I was knocking triggers down even though I was still getting nicotine, I was really confident that I would be able to stay quit without the patch. I looked forward to my step-downs and saw them as a chance to test and refine my strategies. I never made worries by being afraid of what "might happen".
I never had any significant cravings at step-downs or after I was off the patch. The first couple of days, I had a few more thoughts & they were a little more intense. I was ready for them, I was actually glad to have them because it gave me chance to prove I could go nekkid. Every time I beat one, I congratulated myself and gave myself a little reward every day. We had a nine-page nekkid party on my first day nicotine-free!
I'm not saying this will be your experience, but I can say it helps a lot to stay on the entire program and to use the time on NRT to prepare really well for being off it.
Also, this is your quit. Not your mother's nor your husband's. Your mother quit before they started jacking up the nicotine with chemicals to keep us addicted, & I bet your husband can't really take it or leave it as easily as he might want to believe.
YOU are doing this hard thing for YOUR own reasons, and you have to do it in the best way for you.
We're here for yuo & we know you can do it.
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[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 177
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,540
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,947.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
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