My job sometimes requires me to be on my own for a couple of hours without a relief man. I run master control for a broadcast operation on Saturdays, and a panic attack would likely mean I lose control of my post and the operation goes down.
Until recently, this has never been a problem - in fact, I have enjoyed working by myself. But since my first *really* seismic episode in early July, I have been quite uncomfortable with the notion of being on my own for a few hours.
Today though, I got through two hours of being alone just fine. I just reminded myself that I've done it successfully before and its no big deal. That, plus a third of a Xanax helped (I find I do not need a stiff dose of Xanax to function; anything from 1/2 to 1/3 of a 25'er works fine).
Nice to know my fears didn't set me off this time and that I can probably call on this same reminder in the future. Good luck to you too.
