I'm an addict and I blessed to know it :) The last couple days have been very emotional for me which is understandable b/c I'm early into my quit. The junkie was putting the image of me going to the store, buying a pack of newports, sitting down, lighting one up ( and I could definately imagine the taking a long deep drag part)! And the junkie was telling me this is not the right time for u to quit, go ahead, start again, it's no big deal, you can always quit another time. [color=Red]I laugh at the EVIL junkie! [/color] How do I know that I'll quit again and if I do how do I know that I won't get cancer or something before I quit, shoot I might already have something that I don't know about!
I always tell on the junkie b/c the junkie would rather I keep everything it tells me to myself.
The only way I know how to quit and stay quit is to be very honest and real about the facts. The facts are that my head (the junkie) was trying to get me to smoke today. Fact...I don't want to smoke! Fact...I love being smoke free! Fact....I put the ugly truth of what my head was saying out for all to see....Fact....it's not a secret anymore, Fact......secrets are dangerous and will take me back to smoking in a new york minute!
I'm proud of myself for making it through the last 4 days without a puff!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! When times got hard today I called my friend Ms. Lady and she encouraged me and was patient and understanding and all the things a friend is :)
Her quit has inspired me to get back to a smoke-free life for quite awhile now. I never told her that cuz I wasn't ready but she was a shining example for me! And she still is b/c I see how much she's changed and how very happy she is today. Her weekend was WAYYYYY better than mine, LOL. And if I would have been acting as a mature adult I could have had a much better weekend myself :O
Fact....I have to own up to and be responsible for my actions in order to remain quit b/c if I don't change I will smoke again.
Addiction is a serious serious disease and it's not easy sometimes but nothing good comes easy!
I know that the disease of addiction is just waiting for me around the corner,,,,or it say's something like that in the poem and I have to stay focused on my desire to be happy and healthy because if I don't it will get me again.
Here's too making it through day 4 smoke-free!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please take what u want and leave the rest :)
Just breathe.........AHHHHHHHHHHH
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/16/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 80
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $19.20
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53
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$28,008.00
Amount Saved
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Days: 612
Hours: 20
Minutes: 53
Seconds: 22
Life Gained
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4668
Smoke Free Days
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93,360
Cigarettes Not Smoked
