After more than a year of not smoking, and not even thinking about smoking expect when in presence of smokers, and even then I don't want to smoke. Yesterday I was golfing, the weather was beautiful and I was having a good time, out of the blue, I want to smoke and I mean want a cigarette, I'm uneasy and I'm getting nervous all I can think about is smoking, this lasted all day yesterday. I used all of my coping mechanisms, it was so hard I had to self talk for hours, no you don't want to, but but .... those voices in my head kept going and going, finally ,I used visualisation... I pictured myself smoking and coughing, trying to find a hidden spot, where no one would see me and feeling guilty about wasting over a year of being a non-smoker. Finally went away and back to normal again, whatever that is, LOL. So I thought I had this thing beaten, well guess what? This is the worst addiction, it just creeps up on you and slaps you out of your wits when you least expect it. I am determined never to smoke again and my determination won. I am so relieved and proud of myself... I am sharing this because it might help someone, just say NOPE no matter what.....
Marie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/13/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 393
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,681
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,554.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 52 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41