Hi everyone,
Today is Quit Day, and it's scary! I woke up around 6 and felt happy, and almost relieved to be quitting [again]. (Last night our 10 year old daughter and I had a nice talk about addiction during my last cigarette, (she never actually saw me smoke because I would outside alone) and she happily helped me toss the extras to prepare for today:) She is thankful, and very supportive of my quit.
I felt fine until about 6:45am when I sat to visit with my husband before work. As soon as I started sharing some of the things I'm learning and how thankful I am for real people in the same situation on this site... I started crying! I hardly ever do that. I feel so emotional and out of control.
So, I eventually regain myself and we part with a more normal feeling and a smile for the day... And then, I get this HUGE craving. I came to this site to distract myself. Then I walked past our little glass fish bowl with our daughter's beta (Tom jumped out of his bowl yesterday and was rescued) and this morning, he's dead. Oh boy. Life without the cigarette-crutch. I think I'll go take a shower...
Forgive me if I don't check back for awhile. I think I'll just get on with my day as best I can and try to ride through the cravings. I'm sure I'll be back tonight.
Thanks for being here...
mk
PS I'm taking Chantix this time. It does seem to help...
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/11/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 5