I am about to enter week 7 of this quit.
Those of you who have been around here awhile know I've done this quitting thing a few times, publically on this site. What I am learning and would like to share is that there is a definate process to this quitting business. There is phases that we go through. It is different for everyone... how these will be experienced. What I know is that these same things have happened to me every time....maybe not in the same order, same duration, same complexity, or same severity...but I know I have felt this way before.
If you are feeling these things...know that it is normal, and don't get discouraged. I keep saying to myself...it is going to get better. Being smoke free is what I want for myself (even there is times I try to tell myself differently), and I putting all my money on those that have gone before me, when they say, It's the best thing they have ever done.
There is, at the beginning, a euphoria...HOORAY...I Am Doing it...I can't believe it. Then there is the phase....YEAH, SO WHAT...BLAH, BLAH, BLAH." For me, the next phase....I DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING, (OR I CAN'T). Next is the "I CAN'T CONCENTRATE", phase. Next will be the WHOOHOO, I FEEL GREAT phase, and so on.
Right now, I am in between the I DONT AND CANT DO ANYTHING phase and the I CANT CONCENTRATE phase, (so don't ask me to do anything). A few days ago, I was wallowing in despair (nicodemon's words) because all I wanted to do was stay curled up in a ball under the covers. I, of course was listenting to the 'JUST GO BACK TO SMOKING' lecture from you know who, when through the trees I heard a whispering....remember what Golferman said...."if you can't get over the mountain....go around". Ok, so I didn't feel like going around either, but I did start digging a tunnel. I came out the other side yesterday, but today have dug a little trench again. I have been reduced to a blithering idiot...had to ask hubby for help on how to make supper tonight...because I could't concentrate long enough to figure out how to do it.
Just a phase, I said...keep going. Inside I'm sad because this is not me...but, I realize that it is just one day...(OK, 2 weeks) out of the rest of my life. The real me will show up...one day. I willing to wait it out. I know it's going to be worth the wait.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]4/30/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 41
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 820
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $471.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
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Quit Meter
$331,914.60
Amount Saved
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Days: 6054
Hours: 9
Minutes: 4
Seconds: 12
Life Gained
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45624
Smoke Free Days
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684,360
Cigarettes Not Smoked