Penguin,
Oh my, when I read your post it was as if I had written it myself!
Like today I just can't and don't want to sit still, my husband wants me to sit outside, and it is beautiful weather, but feels like I just can't, need to be busy so here I am on here trying to feel better, feel like I could start crying an minute and it is like WHY, this is so stupid should be so happy with my (our) life, just crazy!!!!!!!!! seems like no rhyme or reason to this whole process, of course my junkie thinking is when I smoked, I did just sit and relax, so hard for me! most days are like just stay busy, then day is over and go to bed so don't have to think, like a robot. The craves are not there, is just the relearning of how to live without cigs, really think that is the hardest part of this whole journey, for me anyway.
Hope you are doing better, I am sure sending you good thoughts, together we can fight this! It is so crazy that for me I can feel terriable or great and within a split second the feeling change.
Here is my hand lets climb up this mountian together!
hugs and prayers,
Bobbi
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 75
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,250
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $187.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 11 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 40 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41