Hey addicted
Welcome, you have landed lucky this time. There are many many people here who will invest in your success. This is a good site and I predict that for you, this is your last stop on the way to quitten town.
What you describe, is the cycle of addiction that we all are riding. The key word is addict...This is derived from the latin word addictus, which means to devote, yield or deliver. We have yieled to the effects of nicotine. We have devoted our lives to the smoking of said substance and in the end have delivered ourselves up to its damaging consequences.
Make no mistake, nicotine is one mean, tough and nasty substance to put down once it has been invited into one's life. And remember each of us has invited it in...We must take responsibility for our situation before we can achieve any degree of freedom from its grip.
For me, since I consider myself an "emotive smoker", or one who self-medicates in order to deal with unpleasant emotional states, understand the depression of which you speak. I do not negate the seeming power that nicotine has to mitigate these emotional states.
However, I am also going to tell you that it only "seems" to do so. You will not know this, though, until you have willed yourself through the addiction. And that is the rub. Right now you are totally sold on the myth of nicotine as we all are to one degree or another. The difference is, however, that the longer and stronger you fight the more you come to realize that you never needed nicotine to handle those tricky emotional states. It will dawn on you one fine day that you have been lied to. But you cannot get to that realization until you commit to abstinance from the drug that deceives you every day.
Take your time. plan your quit, learn why you smoke, learn when you smoke and develop methods to deal with it. Read posts, post yourself and yell and whine all you want, we understand your pain.
YOU CAN DO THIS, and this is the best place to make it happen.
nonic
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/25/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 158
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,740
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,106.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 28 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53