Cuddles,
I hope you are still coming here and read this and all the other posts here. All of these posts are here because people care. They care and I care. Depression, unlike smoking, is unseen and usually very misunderstood by nearly everyone.
Get with your healthcare professional and get a recommendation on a psychiatrist. Depression can take years to deal with and overcome. That is what is important for you. When you are free of the depression, then you can conquer the smoking. No, I'm not encouraging you to smoke, but you need to take care of you. Depression can ruin your life like no other force. Keep looking for answers and never accept input from untrained, "well meaning" non- professionals. If one doctor can't help you, find another one.
After watching you for a couple of years now, it's apparent that you are given to outside influence, whether from your husband or others. You are surrounded by smokers, which makes quitting all the worse since most quitters don't want to see their "smoking buddies" quit. That includes your husband.
Please get help and take care of yourself. Drop us a line now and then. We care.
Best wishes.
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[color=black]Joe[/color]
[size=3][color=Blue]Knowledge Replaces Fear[/color][/size]
[size=2][color=purple]Hoping for success without hard work is like trying to harvest without planting.[/color][/size]
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[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/15/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 748
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 18,700
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,832.60
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 134 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0
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$36,499.20
Amount Saved
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Days: 9812
Hours: 21
Minutes: 27
Seconds: 5
Life Gained
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45624
Smoke Free Days
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364,992
Cigarettes Not Smoked