Cuddles,
Let's take a trip to the past. You first started this journey right around the time of my very last slip. I had reset my meter, so you were a couple weeks ahead of me in the quit. Together, we formed the "Ex-Smoker Jokers" and we had a "cruise ship" of our own (before the 50 day cruise ship was invented). You were the one who kept track of everybody's anniversaries and big days. You brough so much energy to the group and had so much desire to quit! You were always the bright shining light that I looked to when I was down. You always had a positive outlook on things!
Where is she? Go find her and then come back with that same enthusiasm that you had back then! When you fell at 90 days, nobody could have been more shocked than I was! But I KNEW that one day, you would quit for good! You WOULD beat this! Because you have what it takes to quit and stay quit... I know because I've seen it! But I haven't seen that desire, that positive attitude, that energy in quite some time. For a long time, it's been a chore; it's been a burden. I want to see you get back to a place where the quit is for YOU! It's something that you want. You're not there right now, and that's OK. But please don't give up forever. Take some time.... perhaps 6 months, or whatever you think it will take. But do come back. I want to see the OLD Cuddles again!
Crave the Quit!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]6/17/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 713
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 17,825
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,944.69
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 50 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 15 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13