MomMom,
I somehow missed this until now!
Thoughts are pesky aren't they? You are doing great in recognizing what they are and finding ways to cope. I think this is the part of our quits where staying vigilant is important. Keep smacking the tar out of those thoughts and move forward. Eventually the thoughts will rarely bother us anymore.
I do not allow myself to dwell on them...I think it's important for me and I do acknowledge them, especially when they come out of the blue or are really strong...wave them away in a positive way as just thoughts and get on with my day (I say or think things like yes, I would have had a cigarette after this news when I was a smoker, but thank goodness I don't have to waste my health, time and money on that anymore).
Last night on my way home someone lit up at the bus stop. I watched them take a drag off the cig and suddenly I realized something. I felt nothing. I did not want that cig. I did not hate that cig. It was just a cig. I was thankful I didn't have to smoke it but that was all. Then I realized I had seen people smoking all day and hadn't even thought about it. I smiled. I felt free. Then I looked up in the sky and saw birds flying. I felt like one of them, free to choose where to go next without cigarettes being a factor. It's official for me...and I hope soon for you...the thoughts will lessen and eventually, seldom bother us at all.
(((magic huggs)))
:)
Pat
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/28/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 85
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,415
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1190
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 9 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37
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Quit Meter
$124,992.00
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 995
Hours: 13
Minutes: 47
Seconds: 52
Life Gained
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6510
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
312,480
Cigarettes Not Smoked