Monica I am a relative newcomer to this site. I just read through your post and all the responses. You obviously have a lot of support and friends on this site and I don't think that there is anythng I could say that they haven't said.
With the challenges you have faced for a long period of time I know you must tired. However, to deal with what you have dealt with for as long as you have, you must also posess an inner strength that most of us couldn't muster under the same conditions. I urge you to trust this strength and hang on to it. It will get you through your quit and more importantly through those other difficulties you have to deal with day to day. Have faith in yourself, you are stronger than you may think.
Phillip
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/12/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 16
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 501
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $72
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31