Jersy, you're doing great! I think that what you're experiencing right now is quite natural.
Recently I've had a few days like that too. Days where the craves are very insistant, very 'loud' and kind of overwhelming. I think my mind, self-image, psyche...call it what you will... is getting the message; I haven't taken a holiday from smoking. ...I'm NO LONGER A SMOKER! And the addict in me is realizing it. This for real, and it's for good. The addict is panicking... and being very overt, very demanding. It doesn't want to go quietly into that dark night.
So judging from my own experience it's a bit like death throws. All of a sudden there's a great deal of craving activity... followed by quiet. Yesterday was a big craving day, and today is a very quiet day.
And I think that's OK. It's just my mind and emotions coming to grips with the changes in my life and in my identity.
Yesterday I spend a lot of time on SSC and in looking up info (from several good sources) and testimonials from ex-smokers, on the net. I called a few people, I went out and got a hair-cut... I took extra time just to look around and appreciate the beautiful Spring weather we're having.
Today I'm as happy as a clam :)
I'm sure that I'll have more craving days, and more quiet days. And I expect that the quiet days will start to outnumber the craving days before too long.
But, however it goes, I won't be smoking. And the stronger my conviction is about that, the less trouble I'm going to have with cravings. If I leave the door open a crack, "I won't smoke unless... until..." ...that just feeds the cravings. If the door is closed, "no matter what"... the cravings have nothing to feed off of.
You're going to be great!! Keep your eyes on the prize... and enjoy today! You have that right! Claim it and act on it.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 19
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 492
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $175.75
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43