Ladymullet, my attitude is... I don't care if it gets easier. Easy or not easy... I'm smoke-free and staying that way.
It's easier for me than it was, but there are still times when it doesn't feel good. There are still days when it's difficult, when being a non-smoker is uncomfortable.
But... it always feels better than smoking did. Not as natural, because of all the years I smoked... but better. I'm physically better, and I'm feeling good about the fact that I'm now living in the solution rather than the problem.
Let's face it... adjusting to being a non-smoker after years and years of being a smoker, after becoming physically and psychologically addicted... after making cigarettes and their effects part and parcel of so many aspects of our lives... is gonna take a while. We have to be realistic about that.
So, we put up with the disorientation, the cravings, the frustrations... that "fish out of water" feeling. We put up with the agitation, the nervousness and the knot in our guts.
We live our lives as well as we can, until the lives we're now living start to displace the lives we were living.
I'm still able to enjoy a laugh with friends, I'm still able to enjoy time with my kids, I'm still able to enjoy a movie or a song or any number of other things that have been a part of my life... but there is an undercurrent of discomfort, the almost constant feeling that something is missing... and I know full well what that 'something' is. I also know that I need to fill that vaccuum with something good and worthwhile, something affirming and meaningful... and I need to keep doing that until those things become as big a part of me as smoking once was.
I'm glad you're here Ladymullet. Keep your mind focused on the solution and a new smoke-free life. It will come, I promise you.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 25
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 625
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $231.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 49 [B]Seconds:[/B] 30
