Or perhaps I could call it the 90 day or 3 month "blip". There's no way around it. Today was a rough one. The cravings are coming hard and fast. I haven't felt like this in a while. I suppose its expected.
For the past 2 nights I've dreamt I've been buying cigarettes and can hardly wait to get out of store to go smoke one. The anticipation for that smoke was high. Then I woke up. Certainly glad to know it was just a dream, but also a bit disappointed because it all felt sooooo real. The anticipation of that one smoke.
Because of the 90 days behind me, I'm more able to deal with this, even though its very unpleasant(don't want to scare off any newbies here - its important to remember that at this stage of the quit, the bad days are definitely fewer and far between).
I just wanted to post, to see this in writing, in hopes of booting Old Nick to the curb. Right now I'm not in a very good mood, and perhaps...no NOT perhaps...I really am a bit miserable!!!!!
But now I know from experience...THIS TOO SHALL PASS. Tomorrow will be a better day and tomorrow I will still be smoke free!
Thanks for letting me bend your ears? eyes?
I do feel better just committing this to a post. I'd be lost without you all.
Cheers, Jan
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 90
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,724
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $810
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53