Well after doing so well yesterday with my commute...today wasn't so good. The anticipation before leaving today was overwhelming. Could I do it 2 days in a row? Well I did it but not with the comfort of yesterday. Did I set myself up for failure by expecting it to be as good as yesterday? Seems like yesterday, now, was a fluke of sort. I feel disappointed as well. And yet, today was different, I didn't have this constant sort of heart racing thing.
I did several things differently...at a point where I thought this truck behind me might be riding my butt, I flipped my rear view mirror up, so I couldn't see it behind me...and then, there was like a minor traffic thing, where one lane was blocked off..I was in the one that was open, so the only thing I had to adjust to were the flashing lights and letting someone in my lane...I mean I did it with east, but it almost felt like someone else was driving. I felt just more DAZED than ever before. Almost surreal...I mean I still rewarded myself by telling myself that I still DID it, but I soooo wanted it to be effortless, like yesterday.
Another ?....I've been thinking about meds...how long do you recommend before getting meds? I guess I keep thinking this is going to pass, and I won't need them. Am I in denial? :confuse:
