Today was one of those days that, in the past, would have been a great excuse to cave. Didn't even come close, of course, but Junkie was right there waiting for the 'moment'.
My son had surgery today....and I was dropping down on the patch dosage. There was thoughts of "you can't do this today without smoking...it's going to be way too stressful...so smoke....or keep on the same dosage...you can't stick to your plan...you need to smoke to get through this."
I knew these thoughts would come, but I had every intention of not smoking, and it is that intention that helped me through. We had poor driving conditions, and were running late, so I had to do deep breathing all the way there. When we got there I smelled a smoke, and there it was.... "ask for one." I told myself to keep walking. There was a few times during the tedious waiting and worrying that the Junkie said "You've got time to nip out right now, you know you want to." And when I felt relief at it all being over, it was there..."You've made it....have a smoke to celebrate."
While these are the most junkie thoughts that I have had in one day since I quit, not one of them turned into a crave. They came, I acknowledged them...as ridiculous...and moved on.
This event and the one a few days ago were, by my books, very anxiety provoking for me, and I made it through. Back doors have been closed tightly, and I feel very confident I will continue on this journey.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/10/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 19
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 395
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $218.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7
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Quit Meter
$333,638.78
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6163
Hours: 14
Minutes: 39
Seconds: 18
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45861
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
687,915
Cigarettes Not Smoked
