Hi Lexi, and welcome! Sorry to hear that you are having a bad time right now, we've all been thru that and it does seem like it will never end, BUT IT DOES, and it will for you, too!! I take Ativan as I need it too, it just takes the edge off of the panic, doesn't take it totally away. But you can use the time that you take it to your advantage by practicing changing the way you think while the Ativan calms you some. Do the panic program, see the doc about meds, talk to a counselor, become well informed on this subject. The more you search for info, the more likely you will find something that helps you. Good luck, hope to hear from you soon!