hi everyone! my name is sarah, 23 years old and live in northern ireland.
i really want to quit smoking, really really really. gonna quit tonight at midnight, new year resolution and all that. i've decided to go cold turkey.
i hate smoking, my family and fiance know i smoke, but only a few of my friends know because i am so ashamed of it. its a shameful thing to me now, especially as i have a little boy who will be 2 next month. (btw i don't smoke around him but i know thats no excuse anyway).
i've read up a few things about smoking on the web, and i got paul mckennas quit smoking book yesterday which i've read, it has a few good insights and tips in it. i cant wait to quit. the reason i havent quit right now is because i am looking forward to tonight when i have my last cigarette and i can say "thank heck thats over!"
i've smoked since i was 14, then i quit for about a year and a half when i discovered i was pregnant, and then i started again when my ds was about 6 months-ish old. i really regret starting again and feel so guilty when i think of all the nicotine and godknowswhatelse going through my milk to my baby.
i just keep imagining my son smoking when he is older and it makes me want to cry. or if i die early and arn't around for him. i am doing this for him as much as for myself.
anyway, i'll stop rambling now. just thought i'd introduce myself!
sarah
ps. forgot to say that the other half will probably register too. he is quitting aswell but he doesnt seem to have the determination i have, i am nagging him to quit a bit! :eg: