WOW
It is really really cold out there.
I have been waiting for this day to roll around. First full day off in a couple of weeks and I am really glad for a bit of free time. WOOHOO!
Celebrating the motion of the ocean and the ticking of the clock. 343 days today. MMMMMMMM. Just over 11 months. MMMMMMMMM. Did I ever think that I would make it this far? When I started I really didn't know. I had little trust. Really I took it one day at a time, one crave at a time. Lots of panic and lots of second guessing and those days have passed.
I am so glad to see so many new quitters here and new quitters that are clustering together, closing into great groups to support and cheer one another on. Most inspiring and pretty wonderful to watch.
I am doing a little celebration, doing a little happy dance as my quit is getting really close to one year. Three weeks from today that meter will roll around to one whole year. I have been planning the reward. I am going to get myself a new digital camera. I am looking forward to that and I know I will be able to use it well in the next year because I am going to be travelling a lot. Swimming is going to be a part of that, beacise I will be swimming in comeptative meets. What an awesome reward for being quit. The ability to swim and, now, I can swim well enough and with enough confidence that I will be let myself compete in masters meets. This could be fun, and I think it will be fun, I know for certain that the people I swim with have fun!
There is a place where I wonder and totally rejoice in the swimming gift. The swimming and constantly testing my breathing ability has really helped me maintain my focus on quitting. Because, I really wanted to be able to swimm and I really wanted to be able to breath. I wanted to swim and breath, more than anything else, these I wanted more than smoking.
There is a realization in me today, and this realization has to do with what I want and what I am willing to do in order to get what I want. The challenge of quitting was constantly fueled by my huge desire to swim, travel and to live in a much healthier manner. The healthy thing was vert much over shadowed by my desire to swim and my desire to swim has lead into my desire to travel. So my commitment and focus on swimming has