I breezed through the first 5 days, rarely thought about smoking. the last two days have been just horrible. I think aobut smoking all the time. I have even told myself that maybe I should go buy Allen Carr's book, start smoking again while reading the book, and then quit when the book tells me too. How stupid is that?
I have cooked, cleaned, completed an unfinished craft project, addressed some of my Christmas cards, spent a lot of time on the computer. I even made deviled eggs without there even being a pic-nic to go to!! These are not fleeting cravings, they are ever present thoughts about smoking.
I have not seen my best friends at all this week. They both smoke, and I just have not felt strong enough. I miss them, but the way I am feeling right now, I think I would light up. I am trying to change my triggers, such as talking on the phone and drinking coffee. I just feel so mad and defeated. I am trying to do everything right, but if it is going to be this way for the rest of my life, I am not sure I can take that.
By the way, I am taking chantix. Has anyone else that is taking it gone through periods like this? thanks for listening. I am going to go take a nap now, and hopefully will feel a little better when I wake up.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/26/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 7
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 261
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $49
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 29 [B]Seconds:[/B] 48