Glad I could help. You have my email and IM addresses... feel free to contact me anytime you want to chat.
As far as accepting the quit, yes, that took some time for me too in fact, I'm not sure I'm there all the time. :confuse: I mean, yes, I'm happy that I have quit, but sometimes, I start to think "maybe this is NOT what I want afterall!" I had one of those periods a few weeks ago and sometimes, it's hard to look past the current situation to truly see the better good here. But that's what quitting is - the better good. And in your heart, you know that, but sometimes, convincing your mind of it when you're low and having a rough time, isn't easy.
The best thing you can do is go about your daily routime and if there's a time in the day when you notice that you haven't had the desire to smoke in a while, conciously make a mental note of it. And try to see how often these times happen. You said when we chatted that you have struggled the entire time, but I bet that there have been many times when you have NOT struggled... but when you're in one of those struggling times, it's hard to remember the times that you didn't struggle. But by conciously noting those times and embedding them into your memory, you arm yourself with a comeback to the junkie thinking "I'M ALWAYS CRAVING! I ALWAYS WANT A CIGARETTE!!!" When the reality is that you probably don't... you just THINK you do because those are the times that you notice... not all the times that you DON'T. So try this exercise out a few times and see if that doesn't help you to recognize the easier times more often.
Hang in there Stormy. You'll get there... one day at a time. :)
Crave the Quit!
Pam
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/28/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 402
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 10,063
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1660.26
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 29 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 49
