Tutti here and I'm following up on my earlier post. It's so weird how one minute I'll be coasting along through my quit and doing okay. Then, in only a matter of minutes, I'm so snappy, mad as hell, and down right depressed. Oh, and I feel like a wimp because I actually want to cry a little bit JUST to release some of the pressure I'm feeling right now. This third day is a living nightmare. No, no, that's not right....It's a living hell!! There is no particular thing that I'm angry, snappy, or depressed about. That's just where my emotions are right now. This roller coaster ride really is maddening.
Now I know a cigarette won't make me feel any better, it won't make my dreams come true, it's no cure all, it won't fix any problems, and a smoke will only give me problems. BUT, I still want one. I do. That's a fact and I mean I want one bad. I'm fighting with everything I have. I've drank enough water to float a boat, my jaw hinges are so sore from chewing gum at every turn, I've damn near hyperventilated from breathing so deeply, I've walked all over the office doing other things to TRY and get my mind off of this horrible mood and these God awful cravings, and I think this quit is making my britches too tight!!! And, what's really scary to me is that I keep reading posts from folks who are on their 20th day and more who are still having these moods and awful cravings. Is there NO END in sight?
Guys, send me your good thoughts. I really need to be boosted right now. I'd better be able to look back one day and laugh at this post because it's not funny right now. Nope, not at all.
Hugs....Damn it,
Tutti
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/18/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 195
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $8.37
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 2 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53