[color=Blue]Since my last post my husband has fallen deeper into a depression. It's been bad in the past but now, since his walking isn't improving very much due to the stroke on Jan. 21st he is even more than depressed than before. As a result it's taken it's toll on me and in the past I would have immediately reached for my pack of cig's, gone into my room and puffed away. NOT A CHANCE of that happening !
Luckily I was able to get him into see his psychiatrist - an emergency appointment. Hubby cried most of the time and expressed his "what's the point in rehab... I can't go on any longer like this with everything being done for me.. I'm feeling completely useless.." and so on. Who can blame him .. He's been through more in the past four years - and only now 52 yrs old, his life cut short when all of his friends are having fun, going to work, travelling etc. He is trying to be self sufficient but that isn't working out very well and as time goes on he will eventually have to be placed in a nursing home and the thought of that sends him into a full fledged panic attack.
So, here I am doing what I can but also reminding myself that I too have to take care of my needs and wants, as well as keeping my anxieties in check. Here I am being the best person I can be - all without a smoke in hand. It's been tough, but, it could be worse. My glass is half full, the sky is blue and I can still feel the warmth of the sun regardless of the very cold wind on my face.
I'll be around, here and there.. But for the most part I am getting out more often, seeing people quite a bit more and keeping my mind in check all of the time.
Take good care all.. Protect your quit no matter what adversities you may face because a cigarette will NOT solve your problems.
Love and hugs,
Monica58[/color]
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/12/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 63
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,267
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $567
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 52 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25