Hi Trac,
This disorder certainly moves in cycles, from getting the attacks, to desperately trying to figure a medical reason why/rule out, to anger over having it, then depression grieving to be our old selves again. It can only get better from there. There comes a point, that you realize, there are no certain answers, and no miracle drug to wipe it out overnight, and you find and WORK with your doctor and or therapist. You have got to work for it to get better, therapy work is great, but you have literally start to drag yourself out of bed when you dont feel like it, start small walks up and down your street, working on crafts, or whatever you can at home, to keep your mind occupied, doing this daily will help your mind mentally, and you will start to feel better, and the motivation to keep trying will too. I have had a period of remission of this, yes it came back, but I still maintained some coping skills, and the depression doesnt creep in NEARLY as bad, because you know it's just a setback. Lifestyle changes are good too. Just as we compare diabetics to needing their medicine, they also have to adapt to a dietary lifestyle. We do too. Cutting out caffines, smoking, drinking more herbal teas, learning relaxation, eating properly, and so on can tremendous reduce the anxiety and panic. Your family and friends are still around you because they love you and accept you for whatever you have. Would you quit being around a family member if they had cancer? No
We are our own worst enemies, and believe me, we judge ourselves more harshly than others. They truly don't perceive us as crazy as we think that is in their minds. I wish you luck with your therapist, and feel free to vent, or share any successes, rather it was something that made you laugh, to achievements. Those are truly priceless.
God Bless,
Trish
P.S. Pond!!! Hun!!!! So glad you stopped in for words of encouragement, I had been wondering if you still were making great progress, and so nice to hear that you are!!! Keep it up Bud!!!
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