Tennielle,
I'm proud of you for going 3 weeks. Depression can be pretty hard to deal with when you first quit smoking. I hope your doctor gets your medication right so that you can quit again soon. When you do, we will be here waiting.
I want you to read this. It's a post that Shevie wrote for another member who was going back to smoking for a while. Read Shevie's words and I want you to do EXACTLY what he says here EACH time you smoke a cigarette. K?
[color=blue]"During your brief hiatus from quitting I want you to do something for yourself. I want you to examine every cigarette you smoke. Why are you smoking it? Is it helping? Is there something else you could/should be doing right now?
Also, notice the details of smoking: the heat of the cig between your fingers and on your lips. Notice the heat of the smoke as it goes into your mouth and down your throat. Notice the sting of the smoke in your eyes.
Before you inhale, let a bit of smoke out and notice its color. Then notice the difference in the smoke's color as you exhale. Remind yourself that the change is because something was left behind, in you, coating your lungs. Do that at least twice with every cig you smoke and remember that it happens with each drag. Also remember that what is left behind is infusing itself into every cell of your lungs, altering their structures to set the stage for COPD, altering their DNA to set the stage for lung cancer. Every drag.
Don't worry about your slip. You do as I asked and your slip will be temporary, I assure you. And please do not say goodbye. You don't have to be quit to be here. You just have to want to be. IMO, as long as you desire to be smoke-free, then you are trying to quit. Trying is good enough for me." [/color]
Tennielle, I think part of what happened here is that the longest you'd ever made it before was 3 weeks, and I think that sort of played in your mind when you decided to smoke. Am I right? If so, I think you're still having problems with overthinking the quit. When you're REALLY ready to quit, all other matters that may seem like downsides of quitting won't matter anymore because the thing you want (quitting) is more important than all the relatively minor things that might seem unpleasant at th