Just one day till I step on the cruise ship and I've been thinking..."yeah, I really do feel like I'm cruisin." Today, as I was leaving work, I thought of a cig (a usual trigger for me), and it was like someone slapped me in the face. Do you realize, you have not thought of smoking ALL MORNING. WhoooHooo. YES!!!!!
I've noticed during the last week that the smoking thoughts are coming and going more than just being ever present. After the roller coaster ride 2 weeks ago, when I just said "Let it go", Things have just gotten better and better. I don't feel so tired, I have a little more motivation, I'm not feeling so confused, aches and pains are disappearing.
I have not been visiting here as often the last few days. A number of reasons for that. Since I have been here for over a year in my quest to be free, there is not much I haven't read. So it's more of a daily check in to see what's happening. Sometimes I find it frustrating to read of peoples difficulties, knowing that no matter what I posted, they would likely smoke anyway. I'm sure some have felt that way with me in the past. I realized today however, why it is I am feeling so comfortable with this quit.........I have been and am WILLING TO ACCEPT.
Willing to Accept what?
1. That quitting smoking can be uncomfortable.
2. That life will be in a turmoil for a while, but it won't last forever.
3. That I am a Nicotine addict. (But I don't smoke)
4. That the only thing I have given up is poisoning myself.
5. That as a smoker I had no life outside of when I was going to get the next fix.
6. That quitting is the right choice.
7. That previous attempts perished because I was not willing to accept.
By being willing to accept, I haven't had too difficult a time. I haven't had to fight craves, they just don't come. Thoughts yes, but only for as long as I allow them attention in my mind. There has been no fighting....I have very little anger. I was a very angry person before I quit. Now I know why. Nicotine Addiction.
There has been quite a few moments the past 7 weeks where, in the past would have been a perfect excuse to cave, but I haven't. I worked my way through them. The thoughts were there (Nicodemon will always try and open the back door), but I have ref
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$331,900.05
Amount Saved
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Days: 6054
Hours: 2
Minutes: 35
Seconds: 35
Life Gained
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45622
Smoke Free Days
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684,330
Cigarettes Not Smoked