Yes penguin those darn tapes just seem to be playing on replay. Over and over again. And to stop them is almost impossible. Even recgonizing that they are just tapes playing, not the truth, is not enough. I felt this way before I started smoking, and it is it's own little addictive habit. To stop them from playing requires me finding new things to listen to. Ad sometimes it is just too much to spend so many hours each day, guiding each and every thought I have, and trying to ensure that the next thought is ot as destructive as the last.
As for the garlic fingers....LOL
I wish I could explain. It's a favorite of mine to begin with, like chips or ice cream for most. But since this quit started, I am having a hard time with eating. I don't crave after a meal, and I am eating more than I used to, but I just don't seem to enjoy food as much. I am not as satisfied walking away from a meal as I used to be. I not only always seem to be hungry, but I just don't enjoy what I am eating. Thats whay the garlic fingers, I think. Something I know I enjoy and can just munch on. Heat up half a dozen and just munch away. Or maybe it's just in the making. My grandmother always said that making dough was a theraputic thing. Maybe it has just taking this quit to realize I need some new way to relax and just let go. But I sure wish I would enjoy other things again. Like reading, painting, and my religious studies. I feel lately as though this fight against addiction has taken all my enjoyment out of life. How foolish is that? I should feel so much better for what I am doing, not worse.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/15/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 24
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 619
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $198
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 17 [B]Seconds:[/B] 28
