Gonna fly nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww..... :) Nic is a sly dog, lock 'em up in the shed and throw away the key! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 50 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,168 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �275 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 55

Actually Jan you weren't getting carried away! Do, say, whatever it takes to kick that nicodemon the hell away from you! EXORCISE it if necessary! You have a fabulous quit going and as of right now I am so happy that you have one of your favourite shows coming on very soon! :) Enjoy that sweetie! (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) -- warding off the nicodemon..BOOO! Monica58 [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/Angel.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/12/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 39 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 796 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $351 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 25 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43

Ewww, all these Rocky types. I'm more delicate than that -- I also have my fist in the air, but it's holding a Camel Light butt, the music is swelling, and I'm like, "As Gawd is mah witness, Ah will nevah ... "

Sometimes,it's amazing how easy it is to forget how hard it was and how much we have worked/struggled to get where we are.........We don't ever want to go back! Go Rocky go! Windy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 162 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,258 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $810 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 15 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 46 [B]Seconds:[/B] 46

I'm trying to understand where I am in my quit, and why certain things happen. At nearly 40 days smoke free, a little voice inside my head is saying to me, "OK, you've proved a point - you can quit smoking." Its trying to say that I can quit at the drop of a hat...therefore wouldn't it be OK to have just one or two?...or a hundred or a thousand!!!!! I'm taking this to be a "last ditch" effort in some part of my brain that doesn't want to acknowledge that this is the end of the road for the nicodemon. I expected this to happen to me because I've read about some of you experiencing the same thing. So I take it for what it is and say to the nicodemon - "IN YOUR FACE!!! I REFUSE TO SMOKE AGAIN." - That's when the theme from Rocky kicks in and I raise my closed fist in the air as a cloud of smoke becomes barely discernable off in the distance. OK, OK, so now I'm getting carried away. Have a great evening! American Idol tonight!!! Cheers, Jan [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/13/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 38 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,163 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $342 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 50

LOL---Peteg! You truly are a nut! :) Brings a whole new meaning to the burning of Atlanta! :confuse: You are doing so well, Jan. It is funny how time erases your memory of how hard it was at first...kinda like giving birth. Lawdy! I don't know nuthin 'bout birthin no babies! I'm going to quit....I'm on a roll now! Hugs to you, Jan! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 167 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,385 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1336 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 17 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7

Maybe I'm early because this is one of the worst longest lasting and most painful cravings I have had thus far. It started off as usual enough after lunch with a mild after eating crave and intensified from there. By dinner time it was so bad (even with the gum) that I didn't want to aggravate it by eating once again so I skipped dinner. By 8 pm it was a full blown CAT 5. I went to bed for some visualization exercises and fell into a restless tossing turning sleep. I woke up several times wanting to smoke. I woke up with this craving unabated. My first thought was whether someone threw a butt in the gutter outside that I could smoke until I get to the store and buy a pack. I don't want a cigarette, I want to pitch the quit and start coughing again. Before you get all excited, where am I. I'm not out in the gutter looking for a butt. I'm not on my way to the store. I'm really here with you all. That heavy weight you feel is me, leaning on you. I saw Jan58's post and jumped in because it's around this time, that the cravings intensify and then abate. I have only to wait it out. Like Jan, it was not unexpected. I was ready. It's 5:30 in the morning and I'm ready. I'm here. I'm chomping on the gum, taking deep breaths. My hands are busy on the keyboard so I've got someone holding my right hand and someone holding my left hand and I couldn't reach for a cig if one was right in front of me. This is absolutely the worst it's ever been. I've got nicodemon telling me I'm all healed up and won't cough anymore (which I know not to be true). I've got a pounding headache. One minute I'm freezing cold, the next sweating. I'm shaking all over. One minute I'm taking a deep breath, the next I can't manage to do it. I've got 25 days and I'm not giving in now. I am not telling the addiction how much torture I can tolerate before I crack. That's just insuring more of the same in the future. If this is the end of the road, it's going to be the end of the road for nicodemon, right Jan? It's not going to be the end of the road for us. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/27/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 25 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 761 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $250 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B]

Jan Your post hit home so hard and you put it so well. Your awareness around your demon is exactly how you beat the demon. Observing our gremlins actually disables their power. So you've already won this one honey. Keep going. Well well done and all the best Sharon [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/14/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 130 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,302 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �349.7 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 22 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16

High Five Jan Right on track! Going in the right direction. GET OUT OF MY WAY, NICODEMON, WE'RE COMING THROUGH. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/10/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 41 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 838 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $471.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 30 [B]Seconds:[/B] 51

jan, Keep slamming that door it the nicodemon's face! Your determination is outstanding and thanks for this great insight. Your looking good at 40 days! Josie _____________________ The SSC Support Team.