Shannon,
We have a saying around here - N.O.P.E. - Not One Puff Ever. If you want to quit, then you don't smoke and if you continue to smoke, then you are not quit. Plain and simple. Five smokes in 2 days can, and most likely will, turn into regular amounts in no time flat! You're a junkie, just like I am. We cannot have even one cigarette and keep our quits. If you justify your smoking by saying that you're not doing it as much as you used to, then you're headed right back into your addiction really quickly! Be careful! Even 5 cigarettes in 2 days is smoking.
No, you're most certainly not alone in slipping. Since finding this site in June of last year (I recently rejoined), I have had 3 "slips" and after the last one, I reset my meter and have been smoke free ever since. So yes, it can be done after a slip or relapse. There are many, many, many successful quitters around here who have quit, then slipped or relapsed, and went on to have successful quits. You can do it too! But first, you have to ask yourself a few things. Do you really want to quit? If so, then why are you still smoking? I don't mean that as a rude question and I'm not asking for an answer... I just want you to think about it for a while. You can not smoke and still be quit... those two things are mutually exclusive. So what is keeping you from having a successful quit? Figure out what your triggers are (the things that make you want to smoke) and figure out what substitutions you will use instead of smoking when you are faced with a trigger or a difficult situation. Plan out your quit. And make sure that you know why you are quitting... make a list of reasons to quit. And also make a list of rewards that you will give yourself after 1 day, 1 week, 2 weeks, 1 month, etc... of being quit. Give yourself something to look forward to! That way, you might not be as likely to light up if you know that you can't have "such and such" if you smoke. Give yourself some goals and reward yourself for quitting smoking. Rewards are very important!
So, yes Shannon, you CAN quit, even though you have slipped up. Many, including myself, have done it. Now, you just have to find the will and the dedication to do it. Best wishes!
Crave the Quit!
Pam
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