I still get severe urges and I get them every day. Last night, I had it so bad I couldn't sleep. I had to take a couple of sleeping pills.
I know that there is an end to this road. I just don't know where it is. I tried stopping the NRT, but I was faced with the very real possibility that I would fail and return to smoking unless I had something to help me through the worst of the cravings.
Strangely, though, I know I am now a non-smoker. The urges are the memories of how nice it was to smoke, not actually smoking because I had a puff a few weeks ago and couldn't stand it. It opened my eyes to the fact that I am in fact a non smoker. So what are the urges, the cravings that can paralyze me. They are the memories of what was.
It's like being in an abusive relationship. You hang in there remembering when it was good. Putting up with all kinds of abuse. After awhile, all you have are the memories of what you had. Once.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]1/27/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 215
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,450
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2,150.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 28 [B]Hrs:[/B] 7 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41