I find it funny that doctors are so easy to give out Paxil, which makes a lot of us feel even worse or crazy but we try to get something else and it€™s like pulling teeth, I have had the same problem. I only have panic attacks when I drive so I only want medication for before I drive. It makes no sense to me to have meds constantly running through my body when I don€™t always need them.
And don€™t feel like a failure, maybe his attacks aren€™t as bad as yours or maybe they are just different. We are all different and experience things differently. Take things one day at a time and focus on all you have accomplished and don€™t compare yourself to anyone else, not even your husband, because you are you, not him.