Hello Eve. I've read this thread several times over the last few hours. There was a time I went through the very same feelings. Take a look at the number of posts I have. Most of those wer in my first few months, now most people here don't even know me. I had to back off the site because I started feeling responsible for those I missed and might have helped! I was taking the weight of the world on my shoulders. This site needs you and all the others like you who care so much. Do not burn yourself out with the trying Eve! I wrote something in here a while back that I'd like to share with you...
[color=Blue]When my daughter was a small child, she started learning to walk. She would pull herself up on the couch, push off and take a few faltering steps. Then she would fall. Sometimes she fell with a little "oomph", then she would pull herself up and try again. Sometimes she would fall and it would hurt. I would pick her up, comfort her, hold her hand and lead her across the floor. Eventually, she learned she that if she didn't hesitate, she could stay on here feet.
There was nothing I could do to help her learning curve. All I could do was encourage her...hold her hand till she didn't need my support, pick her up and brush her off when she fell, and always let her know that I thought she could do it. It wouldn't have done any good to tell her how to walk, she had to find her own way. All I could do was show her by example and hold out my arms to give her a target to aim for!
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Keep being the inspiration that you are Eve! Just remember you can't walk for everyone...they have to do that themselves. The responsibility is theirs. And you can't always be here, let others pick up the slack (that was hard for me to do...but look there you and so many other capable people are! :)
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