Hello everyone,
Was relieved to read all your posts on the "hormone connection". I've just finished a very difficult three days at work, feeling like I had to climb a mountain each day to cope with it all, in the first few days of my period. Horrible tearful, fearful, shaky, pounding heart stuff, and feeling like I'm going into battle as I drive to work.
I KNOW I often feel worse because of the hormones, but during low patches it can feel like I'm experiencing hormone-related stresses all through the month!
Scarily, I also feel panicky and shaky in the car, and that it's hard to concentrate calmly on safe driving. I have to try to relax and not drive in a panicky way, but I'm aware of my heart thumping; it's quite frightening and I feel like I have constant "near-misses". (On my days off I can drive much more calmly.....!)
After reading your posts I do wonder if my increased panicky/stressed feelings in the past two years ARE due to my age: I'm 42. (Does "perimenopausal" mean, "coming up to the menopause"? Sorry to be dim, but I've never heard the word before: UK differences, maybe!) In fact, maybe this IS all part of the menopause? I'm menstruating normally though. And to be honest lots of the way I feel has been like this for much of my adult life, just worse in recent years, and definitely worse since having babies 14 years ago.
But I've experienced some fairly major stress factors over those 2 years, and assumed it had all taken it's toll, leaving me in this vulnerable and unstable state.
I posted first on "Introduce Yourself" (First-Timer) and wrote about how my job as a teacher causes me huge stress, and Anne-Marie indicated that I should consider changing jobs, which of course I'd love to do if it made me feel stronger and better!
But one BIG problem is that this shakiness and "skittering thoughts" (you know, when the panic makes you feel you can't absorb information and can't think straight or remember things properly....anyone else have this?) means that I've lost so much confidence in myself.
I know that (underneath all the shaky stuff) I can be good at my job and should be able to tackle many other jobs well, but I feel so over-loaded with stuff to do, and feel I can't keep up with it all as it is, that the thought of trying to