Hey BFS,
Yes, I remember you also from last year. I left the site for a while because some of the members were not being very kind or supportive. People on this site may have quit and relapsed 10, 20, 30 times before their forever quits. But, when I was at the beginning of this journey and was being honest about having one cig in those situations that I soon learned that I should stay out of (drinking, socializing with smokers, etc), some members forgot about all the times that they have quit and then smoked again. I was tortured in my brain everytime that I would give in and smoke one. People should have understood that. And then receive some very negative feedback when I was honest...I just stopped posting on the site, although I would come and read. I started going to nic anonymous meetings and frequenting the "easy way" site instead. I was staying smoke free. But after my mom passed over the beginning of May, I smoked for a couple of weeks, so, I restarted my meter. It has been a slow process for me. A year long battle. Now, I am faced with giving up the lozenges. I still do around 4 2mg lozenges a day. I FINALLY feel confident that I will not smoke any cigarettes. I have faced all the situations where I would have failed in the past...been in a bar numerous times, been around my ex, who smokes; even have a roommate who smokes and I have overcome the cravings and not bummed or stolen a smoke from him. I know that people need to be admonished to never light that next cig. But, if they do, I certainly understand. I will always try and be supportive to never quit quitting for those that are having a particularly hard time; not condemning. I do remember that you were one of the people that was understanding; and I thank you for that. No matter how many times someone gives in a smokes one cig, or a few, they feel bad enough about it for themselves. They should be able to come here and get encouragement. It will happen in the timing of their life circumstances; not anyone elses.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/25/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,260
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $172.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
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Quit Meter
$91,238.00
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 5982
Hours: 11
Minutes: 12
Seconds: 45
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45619
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
456,190
Cigarettes Not Smoked
