Hi smoked out, I know a lot about these medications and it may definately be the cause of your problems. You really should speak to a doctor (if not your brother in law, then another doctor) about whether or not you should continue on it. It will be difficult to tell if it is quit related or medication related but if they ask the right questions, you should be able to figure it out. Good luck and keep up the good work. Whatever the problem is, smoking again is not the answer.

awwww so sorry to hear you are having such a hard time -its not nice and yes when you put it like that its seems like a smoke is no big deal....but you have worked so hard and you will get over it - maybe its a good thing all these emotions are coming out kind of like cleansing your soul - see what happens but dont get depressed chin up xx

I think at about 30 days an anti-climax kicks in. All that work. Now it actually feels like I can make it. But what I want to say is this. NRT does not make you quit smoking. It helps some people, but not all. Over a two year period, I tried patches, gum. lozenges, and cold turkey. Practice I think to determine what would eventually work. Finally I had all of my NRT on a table. Looked at it disappointedly and said to myself, You are just going to have to stop. As in, Just say, no. I think saying, no, really is the bottom line. I did choose cold turkey. Mainly to get through the withdrawals fast. And because I felt that the NRTs just kept me craving by putting nicotine in my system. I wanted this quit to be difficult because I have quit before, but I also had no memory of having suffered for the quit. I think it's because I did use NRT the first time. I don't remember feeling any withdrawals at all. I think it makes little sense to get jealous with anyone over something you too can do. Hearing how much time people have inspires me and makes me feel like quitting for good really is doable. Your husband has not done anything you are not capable of doing. You may find that regardless of what happens with your quit, your husband's quit will remain intact. What has become clear to me is that I do indeed have a junkie, a jerk that craves attention. And I think the realization that I do have this junkie is extremely important in managing this quit. Frankly, I think you have to spend more time taming your junkie. It is getting the best of you, and that need not be the case. Hang in there. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/11/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 34 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,365 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $251.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 43

Kerin, I JUST went through this - same days quit too. I am on welbutrin, and I began doubting the medication as well.. I am planning to talk to my doctor about it, but please beleive me when I tell you that it passed. This is temporary. *hugs* Hang in there. Have some fun, pamper yourself, and take some deap breaths. All of those will help bump you out of what you are feeling. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 26 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,467 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $338 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 50 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

How are you doing SO? I think i would talk to the doc about the meds.They may just not be right for you. Maybe patch,lozenger would do fine. I havent had the emotional battle you seem to be having but i sure have been having the bitc*y battle....think i rather cry then feel so mean. LOL And SO don't carry so much weight on your shoulders about the people you have told. That is one of the reasons I told very few. I felt it was to much pressure for me and just wanted it to be between me and me.....if i failed then so be it. Push it all off! This is something you are doing for you.....and no one else. Your not a failure. Tell SIL and BIL that may give you some relief. Hang in there SO.... correen [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/14/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 29 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,185 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $108.75 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 5 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16

Hey Kerin, just touching base with you and wanted to say thanks for the post on my thread. It's nice to know it wasn't just me doing that with the non-smokers, I thought that would just be so easy for me...go figure...lol. But YES I am proud of us and that we have gotten through some rough times. I am now off the patch and only going to stay on Wellbutron for another week and then slowly go off it. There are still times that wanting a cigarette just jumps at me and I think...hmmm oh how I could so have one....BUT that's not going to happen. Hope things are getting better with you, I am really starting to count down our trip to Hawaii. Anyway just wanted to say thanks and I was thinking about you and hoping all if well with you. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/19/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 67 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 675 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $134 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 13 [B]Mins:[/B] 32 [B]Seconds:[/B] 38

I Smoked out, I think you should talk to your Md about the pills. And yes people react in different ways, I cry also I have cried an entire day in the beginning of my quit. So you're not alone, in some people quitting brings on a small temporary depression, so that's why it.s important to reward yourself, pamper yourself. quitting smoking is the best reward you and your hubby can give yourselves. No more coughing, out of breath, smelly clothes and breath etc etc to name just a few. So hang on you are in the junky thinking right now you will have to pick yourself up and go go go. You can do this one day at a time :)Marie [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/13/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 58 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 877 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $232 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 6 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

I want to thank YOU and EVERYONE here for helping me . I feel better. It means so much, and makes me so much stronger to know I am not alone in this. And that you wonderful people take the time to write me such inspirational posts and give me advice and support. I hope you all know how good it makes someone feel to know there are peope who care. I am horrible at expressing my feelings and giving advice/support. I do my best,but am so happy there are people like you who do such a wonderful job at it. I still cant say I feel like my complete self. But you all have reminded me my body is still healing. The weekend went pretty well. We almost finished our scuba lessons, And I had my hair done. My hairdresser kept commenting on how healthy my skin looked,and asked if I was using a new product(which I have not been). I am sure it has to do with quitting,but was afraid to tell another person I quit smoking. So I just said thank you. But it made me feel good to know someone who doesnt know I quit,noticed a positive difference in my appearance. I am still not sure if Zyban is a factor in my emotions,or if I want to continue to take it. And I do plan to talk to my brother in-law about these issues. I am just afraid he will tell me to stop taking it,and then find out it is not the culprit. I dont know?....... But I am standing strong. Again and From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU !!! Kerin [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 28 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 568 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $103.6 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 31 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6

Hi all, Day 25 on Zyban. I have not been doing so well. I promise I have been trying to distract myself and think positive thoughts,but I think I might be driving myself crazy. I have been feeling this way the past couple days,Tried to ignore it,but broke down last night. I didnt smoke but I still feel like crying this morning. It was hard for me to even get online to post this,I dont think I can truly express how I feel though writing,but will do my best and hope it makes sense. I guess I am really confused. I feel depressed and have never fealt this way before ever. I have always been an emotional person but,have been able to control them. It seems I am no longer in control of my emotions. I am having crying fits for no reason. I am easily frustrated,and am afraid I am scaring my husband and dogs with my behavior. By the way he has been very suportive and his quit seems to be going good. I am jealous of him for that. And that also frustrates me. I sometimes wonder if it is the nicotine withdrawal or zyban side effects. It is such a gray area in my oppinion. I also think that maybe I underestimated what I was getting into(my first quit),and that I should not try to handle such a stressful part of my life now without nicotine.I know that may sound like a junkie thought,but unless your in my shoes.... I also am fighting the dissapointment in myself for even having thoughts of giving up. I do not want to ruin my husbands quit. I have thought about trying a patch or gum,but do not want to put nicotine back in my body after 24 days. I also have a fear of failure We spent $300 on this medication. My husbands brother in-law (A doctor)prescribed it for us. I am embarrassed to tell his sister and him that I am not doing well on it. Hubby already told them we were doing OK. I also get mad at myself for telling neighbors and my best friend I quit. And sometimes I think maybe I can just smoke like 3 or 4 cigs a day. and just keep it a secret. And its not really that I even want to smoke. I just want to feel normal again. I lost the desire to smoke along with my desire for everything. That is one thing hubby has said he has noticed also. He said he is not really excited about our hawaiian vacation anymore. and I feel the same way. I want to go smoke free

Smoked Out: WOW!!! this could have been me!!! I quit using the patch and wellbutrin. I have recently decided that my biggest problem is that i had not allowed myself to bury and mourn the death of the "smoking" me. Since then, I have been much more at peace with myself and more undrstanding. Stay close and post often about anything and everything that may be of concern to you during your quit! Good luck and God bless! :)