Kerin,
I am suffering as well, and am at the same day as you. I don't know what you are going through but my symptoms feel almost like panick disorder, but I can tell they're not panick attacks.
Last night I found myself in the bathroom with the door closed screaming and crying uncontrollably. I did not sleep worth a damn last night, and today I feel like I can feel every single nerve ending in my body, and I have a headache. I am also very tense and anxious and it feels like I am completely unable to relax.
Yes, something triggered this, but it was very minor in the grand scheme of things, and the reaction is unwarented, so I don't know what any kind of coping mechanism could do for me.
I did write in my journal last night after the screaming and crying incident, and that helped me to not take it out on my husband again. I've done that in the past and it's really taking it's toll on him and my marriage. So, I wrote all of the nastines that I felt directed towards him out and got the stinkin thinkin out of my head. The nervousness, and the anxiety continue though.
I am to the point that I do not know what to do. I keep telling myself that it will not last, and that i have been through this before, and that i know that it will end soon.
I started feeling "week" a couple of days ago.. meaning that i felt like I could smoke if the coditions were right, and then yesterday the conditions were definantly right... I have considered the possibility that the adict in me manifested them. Whatever the case may be - I am misserable. I am beginning to wondr if this ever ends... and i am concerned that there may be some serious emotional problems in me, and that has taken my confidence down a notch or three.
I definantly can sympahize. I guess that we're not going to know if this will ever be OK until we've gone an entire year. That seems like an eternity from the 6 week point - eh?
Stay strong sister.. let's find some nice things to do for ourselves today? All i can think of is a bath tonight.. have any ideas?
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 42
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,333
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $546
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